CHRISTINA(Chiihiru;千晝)
@ blurry-motion.com
* is 16, 27 October 1992
* is sloppy and clumsy
* is kind of hyper
The LOVES ♥
* GOD ♥
* dearest FRIENDS
* the colour blue
* nature
* dancing and singing
* cosplay
* music
* GOD ♥
* dearest FRIENDS
* the colour blue
* nature
* dancing and singing
* cosplay
* music
The WISHES ♥
* get a high distinction!
* bake a tart
* singer at church!
* finish TotA cosplay
* get weight down to 42 kg
* get a part-time job
The SHOUTS ♥* get a high distinction!
* bake a tart
* singer at church!
* finish TotA cosplay
* get weight down to 42 kg
* get a part-time job
October 15, 2009
..... Br...Brainwash?!?!
Okay, more rants!! Yes, I'm still spending my days watching anime everyday ^^;; ....
Btw, I'm going back to Indo soon ... To be honest its kind of hard for me to imagine being distant from IFGF, especially my iCare, and having almost no contact with them for about 2 months? Sighh ...... I'm so weird <_<;; ...
ANYWAYS! Here's some pieces of conversation that happened earlier today in a phone call with me and B at around 3 pm ^o^;; ~ Please take note of the stuff I put in italics~
Do you see what I'm getting at? Here's some other time when me and Henry were about to approach the SEC dancers ...
In one of my daydreams today ... I thought this all through ... and I was like ... Woh, I think I lack self-confidence? Well but its true, I think that I'm always inferior to others, and I'm always scared to experience and try out new stuff .... WHYYYYY TTATT ... I wish I weren't like this! I'm such a coward >o<;; ...
But then, another thing I noticed about myself is that I get heaps of courage and confidence when I have other people with me, compared to when I'm alone, and when people are backing me up ... I'm so dependent and spoilt! I got to change thiiis!
Okay, this is turning emo lol <_<;; ... Another thing that bothers me, part of the call with B, is ...
The one who told me to always have guys the one who does everything was taught to me by my brother = =;;. He said that if I didn't do so, I'd look cheap and slutty omg. To be honest, I detest it ... Coz' isn't it just natural to greet someone? Even if he's a guy? Hmmm ... I don't agree with it ... But I think my past experiences had some impact on me ^^;; ...
Like ... Do you know when you give your everything and your fullest effort, and the person your dedicating it to eventually accepts it for granted after some time? .... Mmmmm yeah something like that~
Btw, I'm going back to Indo soon ... To be honest its kind of hard for me to imagine being distant from IFGF, especially my iCare, and having almost no contact with them for about 2 months? Sighh ...... I'm so weird <_<;; ...
ANYWAYS! Here's some pieces of conversation that happened earlier today in a phone call with me and B at around 3 pm ^o^;; ~ Please take note of the stuff I put in italics~
B: I hear you dance and sing?
Me: LOL where'd you hear that from?
B: I know a lot of stuff, some people even think I'm a stalker~
Me: LOLWHUT
B: So are you gonna be singing on saturday?
Me: Huh?
B: You know, the church anniversary.. You're not singing for the choir?
Me: Ah? Eh... No ... They didn't ask me or approach me regarding it ... so yeah ^^;;
B: Fair enough...
Me: But I'm actually hoping to get in the ministry and being a singer...
B: Then do it!
Me: Um yeah I've requested for it ... But I kind of think that compared to the others... I'm not quite good enough you know...
******
B: ... You don't join the praying event held every wednesday?
Me: ... You mean the iPray?
B: Yeah
Me: ........ I don't think I'm up for it ... Uh you know, get what I mean? (I meant in spiritual strength and stuff >o<)
Do you see what I'm getting at? Here's some other time when me and Henry were about to approach the SEC dancers ...
Henry: Omg, calm down ... *walk walk walk*
Me: OMG HOW CAN I!! I'm ... SCAAAREDD ... They're so good ... I SUCKK TTATT ...
In one of my daydreams today ... I thought this all through ... and I was like ... Woh, I think I lack self-confidence? Well but its true, I think that I'm always inferior to others, and I'm always scared to experience and try out new stuff .... WHYYYYY TTATT ... I wish I weren't like this! I'm such a coward >o<;; ...
But then, another thing I noticed about myself is that I get heaps of courage and confidence when I have other people with me, compared to when I'm alone, and when people are backing me up ... I'm so dependent and spoilt! I got to change thiiis!
Okay, this is turning emo lol <_<;; ... Another thing that bothers me, part of the call with B, is ...
Me: ... It feels that I'm just not talking to him as often lately, you know ...
B: HUH?! WHY?!
Me: I dunno! It's like, I'm the one who always greets him first whether its on msn or whatever, and---
B: LOL SEEE ... ITS BECAUSE YOU'RE A GIRL ISN'T IT?! Psht, indo trend!
Me: Nonononono!!! It's nooott!!
B: LOL yea suuuuuureeee (sarcasm much)
Me: But really!!
The one who told me to always have guys the one who does everything was taught to me by my brother = =;;. He said that if I didn't do so, I'd look cheap and slutty omg. To be honest, I detest it ... Coz' isn't it just natural to greet someone? Even if he's a guy? Hmmm ... I don't agree with it ... But I think my past experiences had some impact on me ^^;; ...
Like ... Do you know when you give your everything and your fullest effort, and the person your dedicating it to eventually accepts it for granted after some time? .... Mmmmm yeah something like that~
October 13, 2009
AAAH @_@
Alright, its 1:38 AM and I've been watching Kamichama Karin and Special A like crazy >o< ... This is baad ...
Karin and Kazue are so sweet together! Hikari and Takishima too! ♥
And I think those animes have brainwashed me = ="" ... Sometimes I just feel like falling in love again, seeing people all around dating, AND ESPECIALLY WITH THESE ANIME !! It can't be helped, it just seems so sweet XD ~
Psht, girls!! I can't seem to get over that the world is so far from perfect, and keep on thinking of my own fantasies ... I NEVER REALISED I WAS SUCH A GIRL LOL HELP MEEE >o<;;; ......
But yeah, I feel like falling in love again, but its just not that easy, neh? ^^;; .....
Anyways, just felt like pouring out my rants, thats all! Gonna sleep now ♥
Karin and Kazue are so sweet together! Hikari and Takishima too! ♥
And I think those animes have brainwashed me = ="" ... Sometimes I just feel like falling in love again, seeing people all around dating, AND ESPECIALLY WITH THESE ANIME !! It can't be helped, it just seems so sweet XD ~
Psht, girls!! I can't seem to get over that the world is so far from perfect, and keep on thinking of my own fantasies ... I NEVER REALISED I WAS SUCH A GIRL LOL HELP MEEE >o<;;; ......
But yeah, I feel like falling in love again, but its just not that easy, neh? ^^;; .....
Anyways, just felt like pouring out my rants, thats all! Gonna sleep now ♥
Labels: ♥
October 06, 2009
Oh my ... household!
Oh my, my mom's been getting mad a lot lately (not that she rarely does, but yea ~)
I overheard her talking with my uncle (dad's bro), and she was complaining about ..... money @_@;;. She was saying that she sent AU $150,000 to Sydney on the 4th month of this year (April), and now its all... depleted? Shocking I know ... I wonder where all of it goes o_O;;. My guess is that my dad uses it like it rains money everyday, or something like that.
Weeelll ... My mom also said that every year the amount she sends to Sydney totals up to AU $2,000,000 .... That doesn't sound good....
The thing is, my dad goes to Star City a lot, and he also gambles on soccer games ;(. Not quite a pleasant sight, he goes home late, stays up, and is retired... and he's only 57 (I think)! He's been retired since his late 40s, and my mom has been the one doing all the hard work and suffering @_@;;.
But really, I never knew that our financial situation was this serious >o<;. This is baaad, dad is using up all mom's savings ... and its eventually gonna totally finish it! That's very very very bad!
Therefore! From now on, I commit myself to doing anything that'll help us get out of this shortage problem @_@;;. I'll start from spending less, and maybe doing commissions once I get a wacom =D. $5 per sketch ain't too bad, it'll add up! Umm... And I guess I'll help my bro at work as much as I could once I reach Indo, and when I return to Sydney, I'll get a job!
As for my wages, I'll have...
50% for mom
10% for church
40% for me... I think XD ~~
Hopefully I'll keep this commitment I make =) ~
Commissions, anyone? XD
hazele.deviantart.com
I overheard her talking with my uncle (dad's bro), and she was complaining about ..... money @_@;;. She was saying that she sent AU $150,000 to Sydney on the 4th month of this year (April), and now its all... depleted? Shocking I know ... I wonder where all of it goes o_O;;. My guess is that my dad uses it like it rains money everyday, or something like that.
Weeelll ... My mom also said that every year the amount she sends to Sydney totals up to AU $2,000,000 .... That doesn't sound good....
The thing is, my dad goes to Star City a lot, and he also gambles on soccer games ;(. Not quite a pleasant sight, he goes home late, stays up, and is retired... and he's only 57 (I think)! He's been retired since his late 40s, and my mom has been the one doing all the hard work and suffering @_@;;.
But really, I never knew that our financial situation was this serious >o<;. This is baaad, dad is using up all mom's savings ... and its eventually gonna totally finish it! That's very very very bad!
Therefore! From now on, I commit myself to doing anything that'll help us get out of this shortage problem @_@;;. I'll start from spending less, and maybe doing commissions once I get a wacom =D. $5 per sketch ain't too bad, it'll add up! Umm... And I guess I'll help my bro at work as much as I could once I reach Indo, and when I return to Sydney, I'll get a job!
As for my wages, I'll have...
50% for mom
10% for church
40% for me... I think XD ~~
Hopefully I'll keep this commitment I make =) ~
Commissions, anyone? XD
hazele.deviantart.com
Labels: Family
October 05, 2009
SYDNEY ♥
Ah wow, my parents are here in Sydney! =D. Since I'm not really close with my parents, I didn't really like the idea of them being here.... But somehow I'm kinda enjoying it. Its like sometimes I wanna talk about heaps loads of stuff to them, but I just can't seem to... It's either I'm scared, or ... ? I dunno hahah!
Lol just realised how complicated my relationship with my parents is.
ANYWAYS!! My initial plan to make this post was to express my love for Sydney ♥
1. IFGF ♥♥♥
IFGF is my church here, which seriously has an AWESOME community! ♥ I love you guuuyss ♥♥♥♥. This church is like a great big family of mine, and whoever comes would know what I mean =). I don't know how, but they make you feel like home, and that you belong there. Particularly my iCare, with Ko Dan, Ci W (Cindy), Rita, Deacy, Phoebe, Gema, and Erick. They're really awesome people, and they're all like my brothers and sisters! iCare is like this small ministry group, I guess? =P. Ko Dan is our iCare leader, whose very very very funny!! Ci W is our co-leader I guess? She always texts us every thursday of the week or so, and always give us encouragement through her words!! Rita is the classic loud one, whose rather boy and childish, but is actually kind hearted inside XD. Deacy ... Hmm I don't know much about her I guess but she's really nice and hilarious too, and always there to support us =). Phoebe or Bebek (duck lol) is also loud, nice, and is preeetty hyper... and pretty with her looks too! =D ... Ci W is pretty too! xP. Gema is the guy who is awesome at cooking!! And he's SOSOSO funny in a classic way, hahaha!! Hard to explain xP. And um Erick or Panda!! He's hilarious by nature, kind, and matured ... but he can get loud XD. Oh, and also not to forget the others! I'm hoping to become a singer at IFGF, or just do anything to help them out! Why? Because if it were not for them, I would have never gotten baptised (I got baptised last saturday), nor would I have changed (not really, but I did a little I think XD). They've all helped me mature, therefore I'd love to return the favour somehow ~ Everyone else at church completes the whole wonderful experience ♥ I can't name everyone, there's too many ... But they do include Bonnie, Juan, Andro, Johan, Mario, Davin, Glen (YES YOU GLEN IF URE READIN THIS LOL), Ivan, Ko Paul (our Pastor), Ci Anna (Ko Paul's wife), Ayen... And OMG so maaaaany more ♥♥ I LOVE U GUYS, AND WE ALL LOVE GOD! XDD ~
Ronald, one of our church members, said that at his farewell BBQ party last saturday. He's going back to Indonesia soon (or has he already? I forgot, I don't know him that much). I don't know him well, but I do know form hearsay that he's a great person, very charismatic, and stylish too =). He's a nice guy from what I see ~ Have a safe trip, Ronald, and all the best wishes for you in Indonesia! We're all here supporting you!
2. Sydney Entertainment Centre Dancers ♥♥♥
Have you guys ever been to Sydney Entertainment Centre on friday evenings and nights? All the dancers come out! =D. I've actually only known these guys for what, 2 weeks? I only meet them every friday anyways XD. Still, doesn't exclude the fact that they're AWESUM, in both dancing and people to be around with ♥. Its really amazing when people of similarities gather together and just ... jam like crazy =D. I got introduced to them by Henry (yes, the Henry from cosplay!). I know a few people by now; Dennis, Quincy, JR, Leslie, Pat, and Yvonne (I wonder if I heard his name right?). Dennis is a bboy while JR, Leslie, and Quincy are lockers. Dennis is FRIKIN HILARIOUS XD ... He always makes me laugh with whatever he does! JR is my senseiii!! teacheer! He's half Phillipino and half Japanese, and is the nicest guy around =D. He teaches me locking~~ and its so fun! Well um, Pat and Yvonne are poppers. Both are mad poppers that I almost always jaw-drop over lol. More omg -> Yvonne is 14 years old!! @_@;;. I'm hoping to be dancing with them for a long long long long time ♥ ~
Leslie said that when we ware havin dinner, with Henry, me, and Yvonne. Its quite true I think, all the lockers dance with a happy and jolly expression, which just makes you wanna smile XD. We come to this conclusion: while lockers are happy people, crumpers are angry people LOL.
3. Beaches, park.... NATURE! ♥♥♥
It's weird, but I seem to like nature (even though I HATE and am SCARED of bugs and creepy crawlies). I love the parks and beaches here, and not to mention the weather (although its always inconsistent)!! Beaches such as Manly, Bondi, and Coogee are just pure love, places to have fun and feel the breeze. Furthermore the parks such as Centennial park are very relaxing ♥. I went to picnic at Milson Point with my Insearch friends last time, and it was such a moment to remember! Hmmm ~ But even just a stroll at Harbour Side is nice!
HAHAHAHA I still remember that time! When William (see the pic above XD) was getting into the line for the photo, he was said that and Stella was like "EWWWWW YOUR ... THING ?!?" likie, she thought he meant his *beep*, when he actually meant his stuff in his pocket. It was SO hilarious! OMG I miss you guys ♥
4. Baking and cooking ... Mmmmm!!
Yesh, I've been baking a LOT lately, about once a week? I used to cook a lot but I bake more now =D. All the ingredients are here, making all recipes possible! I've bakes cookies, muffins, banana breads... etc! I'm excited to pick what I should bake next XD. Its so enjoyable to smell the sweet fragrance of freshly-baked muffins early in the morn, mmmmm!!
My Dad's mom said that when she tried my muffins, which were still fresh =D. Those words were music to my ears ~ It makes me happy to see other people enjoy something I made =)
5. .... COFFEEEEE!!
Weird? I know. But since I took barista courses, I've been loving coffee-making and the sorts! I've always wanted to work at a cafe here, but haven't really gotten the chance = =;; ... I pray that I'll be able to once I get back from Indonesia, since its just too late now =x. Making latte art, and having other people chat with your cup of coffee is just a pleasant sight ~~ And it makes me smile, weee ~~
The quote above actually made me quite happy, since it shows that my bro actually likes my coffee =D. Well, me and my bro don't actually talk a lot, but I think that he actually cares about me, coz' I do! Lol x) ... That's ... embarrassing to say >o<;;. It's hard to express, you know ~ So I think that we just unconsciously communicate it through actions or so ~
Hmmm ... I guess those are the stuff that make me wanna stay in Sydney instead of Jakarta... But I think my family wants me to stay in Jakarta for good or something ... Damn D=... Ah well, we'll just see =D. I'm learning to make the most out of my time in my current years and also in Sydney. Thanks to my church friends, I've learnt that =) ~
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Lol just realised how complicated my relationship with my parents is.
ANYWAYS!! My initial plan to make this post was to express my love for Sydney ♥
1. IFGF ♥♥♥
IFGF is my church here, which seriously has an AWESOME community! ♥ I love you guuuyss ♥♥♥♥. This church is like a great big family of mine, and whoever comes would know what I mean =). I don't know how, but they make you feel like home, and that you belong there. Particularly my iCare, with Ko Dan, Ci W (Cindy), Rita, Deacy, Phoebe, Gema, and Erick. They're really awesome people, and they're all like my brothers and sisters! iCare is like this small ministry group, I guess? =P. Ko Dan is our iCare leader, whose very very very funny!! Ci W is our co-leader I guess? She always texts us every thursday of the week or so, and always give us encouragement through her words!! Rita is the classic loud one, whose rather boy and childish, but is actually kind hearted inside XD. Deacy ... Hmm I don't know much about her I guess but she's really nice and hilarious too, and always there to support us =). Phoebe or Bebek (duck lol) is also loud, nice, and is preeetty hyper... and pretty with her looks too! =D ... Ci W is pretty too! xP. Gema is the guy who is awesome at cooking!! And he's SOSOSO funny in a classic way, hahaha!! Hard to explain xP. And um Erick or Panda!! He's hilarious by nature, kind, and matured ... but he can get loud XD. Oh, and also not to forget the others! I'm hoping to become a singer at IFGF, or just do anything to help them out! Why? Because if it were not for them, I would have never gotten baptised (I got baptised last saturday), nor would I have changed (not really, but I did a little I think XD). They've all helped me mature, therefore I'd love to return the favour somehow ~ Everyone else at church completes the whole wonderful experience ♥ I can't name everyone, there's too many ... But they do include Bonnie, Juan, Andro, Johan, Mario, Davin, Glen (YES YOU GLEN IF URE READIN THIS LOL), Ivan, Ko Paul (our Pastor), Ci Anna (Ko Paul's wife), Ayen... And OMG so maaaaany more ♥♥ I LOVE U GUYS, AND WE ALL LOVE GOD! XDD ~
Love people, love life, love GOD.
- Ronald -
Ronald, one of our church members, said that at his farewell BBQ party last saturday. He's going back to Indonesia soon (or has he already? I forgot, I don't know him that much). I don't know him well, but I do know form hearsay that he's a great person, very charismatic, and stylish too =). He's a nice guy from what I see ~ Have a safe trip, Ronald, and all the best wishes for you in Indonesia! We're all here supporting you!
2. Sydney Entertainment Centre Dancers ♥♥♥
Have you guys ever been to Sydney Entertainment Centre on friday evenings and nights? All the dancers come out! =D. I've actually only known these guys for what, 2 weeks? I only meet them every friday anyways XD. Still, doesn't exclude the fact that they're AWESUM, in both dancing and people to be around with ♥. Its really amazing when people of similarities gather together and just ... jam like crazy =D. I got introduced to them by Henry (yes, the Henry from cosplay!). I know a few people by now; Dennis, Quincy, JR, Leslie, Pat, and Yvonne (I wonder if I heard his name right?). Dennis is a bboy while JR, Leslie, and Quincy are lockers. Dennis is FRIKIN HILARIOUS XD ... He always makes me laugh with whatever he does! JR is my senseiii!! teacheer! He's half Phillipino and half Japanese, and is the nicest guy around =D. He teaches me locking~~ and its so fun! Well um, Pat and Yvonne are poppers. Both are mad poppers that I almost always jaw-drop over lol. More omg -> Yvonne is 14 years old!! @_@;;. I'm hoping to be dancing with them for a long long long long time ♥ ~
Lockers are happy people!
- Leslie -
Leslie said that when we ware havin dinner, with Henry, me, and Yvonne. Its quite true I think, all the lockers dance with a happy and jolly expression, which just makes you wanna smile XD. We come to this conclusion: while lockers are happy people, crumpers are angry people LOL.
3. Beaches, park.... NATURE! ♥♥♥
It's weird, but I seem to like nature (even though I HATE and am SCARED of bugs and creepy crawlies). I love the parks and beaches here, and not to mention the weather (although its always inconsistent)!! Beaches such as Manly, Bondi, and Coogee are just pure love, places to have fun and feel the breeze. Furthermore the parks such as Centennial park are very relaxing ♥. I went to picnic at Milson Point with my Insearch friends last time, and it was such a moment to remember! Hmmm ~ But even just a stroll at Harbour Side is nice!
OMG my .... THING!!
- William -
HAHAHAHA I still remember that time! When William (see the pic above XD) was getting into the line for the photo, he was said that and Stella was like "EWWWWW YOUR ... THING ?!?" likie, she thought he meant his *beep*, when he actually meant his stuff in his pocket. It was SO hilarious! OMG I miss you guys ♥
4. Baking and cooking ... Mmmmm!!
Yesh, I've been baking a LOT lately, about once a week? I used to cook a lot but I bake more now =D. All the ingredients are here, making all recipes possible! I've bakes cookies, muffins, banana breads... etc! I'm excited to pick what I should bake next XD. Its so enjoyable to smell the sweet fragrance of freshly-baked muffins early in the morn, mmmmm!!
Wow, you made these?
- Grandma -
My Dad's mom said that when she tried my muffins, which were still fresh =D. Those words were music to my ears ~ It makes me happy to see other people enjoy something I made =)
5. .... COFFEEEEE!!
Weird? I know. But since I took barista courses, I've been loving coffee-making and the sorts! I've always wanted to work at a cafe here, but haven't really gotten the chance = =;; ... I pray that I'll be able to once I get back from Indonesia, since its just too late now =x. Making latte art, and having other people chat with your cup of coffee is just a pleasant sight ~~ And it makes me smile, weee ~~
Chris... Go make coffee... NOW!!
- My bro, Roy -
The quote above actually made me quite happy, since it shows that my bro actually likes my coffee =D. Well, me and my bro don't actually talk a lot, but I think that he actually cares about me, coz' I do! Lol x) ... That's ... embarrassing to say >o<;;. It's hard to express, you know ~ So I think that we just unconsciously communicate it through actions or so ~
Hmmm ... I guess those are the stuff that make me wanna stay in Sydney instead of Jakarta... But I think my family wants me to stay in Jakarta for good or something ... Damn D=... Ah well, we'll just see =D. I'm learning to make the most out of my time in my current years and also in Sydney. Thanks to my church friends, I've learnt that =) ~
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